NOVIE

Talking about cukup bisa berarti 2 hal yg berbeda. kalo lagi kesel bilangnya cukuppppp. tapi kali ini belajar untuk bilang dan merasa cukup. Bersyukur la ceritanya. Kalo kata pastor jose, org males koq berharap lebih karena takut kecewa. Tapi dengan merasa cukup, kita jadi menghargai keadaan skrg dan tetap berusaha lebih maju. betul ga?

dalam hal percintaan juga. Sebagai manusia normal, pasti bilang rumput tetangga lebih hijau. Tapi dengan merasa cukup ini lah kita jadi lebih menghargai pasangan kita. Selalu bakal ada yg lebih cantik. lebih ganteng, lebih sensitive, lebih kaya, lebih baek dah. Tapi kalo ga merasa cukup, mau pasangan kita gimanapun pastilah terasa kurang.

Kalo ditanya apakah saya merasa cukup.. jujur aja nggak. Malah banyak hal di indonesia yg bikin novie merasa ga cukup. Banyak kecewa. Ya namanya masi muda, masi banyak waktu untuk melatih diri. Jadi saya belajar dikala mau bilang Enough is Enough.. I will need to feel cukup.

女人不必太美，只要有人深爱
cewek gak perlu terlalu cantik,ada org
yg mencintai udah cukup

女人不必太富，只要过得幸福
cewek gak perlu punya banyak
harta,hidup bahagia udah cukup

女人不必太强，只要活得尊贵
cewek gak perlu hidup terlalu
mandiri,hidup disayangi/dihormati udah
cukup.

Cepetnya uda ga terasa 1 bulan uda hampir abis. Hehehe… ngapain aja? enjoy my time for the first time without work, school, and my busy-ness. Well, kayak liburan sebelom masuk ke tahap berikutnya.. yesssss saya jadi for good ke indo. Kocak yahh.. mikirin aja ga perna mau for good but I am going home for real to indo. Demi cinta ( 80%) hehehe.. demi kerjaan juga ( 20%)… cita2 ga mau kerja ikutan org terus, ga maju2 ntar.
Sebelom Erick datang, uda mulai beres2 dikit2 tapi tetep aja masi banyak brg yg di beresin. Sambil beres2 sambil reminiscence juga. Dari buku2 jaman SMC, sampe project2 gw yg di Indiana yg penuh aer mata…hueheuheu.( ketawain diri sendiri) juga foto2 semasa nop2 masi cantik, fell in love face, macem2 deh. Seakan2 sebulan ini meringkas kisah hidup nop2 selama 7.5 taon ini di US.
Gimana si bisa lupain idup novie di US selama itu? Tempat novie gedhe emang di indo, tapi tempat saya belajar jadi mature woman ya di sini ini. DI US juga tempat ku mengenal Tuhan dan merasakan His love in my life through many circumstances in my life.
Ready or not indo here I come…it’s now or never…

1. Bertepuk sebelah tangan

Cowoknya suka cewek nya ga suka.

Cewek nya suka cowoknya males soalnya koq gampang di dapetin

Cowoknya suka ceweknya mau juga akhirnya karena kasian

Ceweknya suka cowoknya akhirnya mau karena di ancam bunuh diri

Cowoknya suka ceweknya mau sambil liat2 kalo ada yg laen yg lebih ok

Ceweknya suka cowoknya mau soalnya ga ada ruginya di layanin kayak raja tiap hari
Cowok nya suka ceweknya belom ada perasaan karena cowoknya kurang cakep

Ceweknya suka cowoknya takut2 karena merasa diri kurang keren ( tidak percaya diri)

Cowoknya suka karena promosi dari pihak ortu, ceweknya terpressure donk

Ceweknya suka karena dorongan teman2. cowoknya  belajar mencintai sampe ketemu yg bener2 dia cintai.

2. Suka sama suka.. but

Group pertemenan super beda

Family ada yg ga setuju

Berbeda agama

Lingkungan sekitar penuh discriminasi

Beda social status

Sexual problem

Cu pat kai ( temennya sun go kong) selalu bilang: "dari dulu begitulah cinta.. deritanya tiada akhir"….. ughhh

Aku bertanya pada Bunda, bagaimanakah lelaki sejati itu?
Bunda menjawab, Nak… Laki-laki Sejati bukanlah dilihat dari bahunya yang kekar, tetapi dari kasih sayangnya pada orang disekitarnya….
Laki-laki sejati bukanlah dilihat dari suaranya yang lantang, tetapi dari kelembutannya mengatakan kebenaran…..
Laki-laki sejati bukanlah dilihat dari jumlah sahabat di sekitarnya, tetapi dari sikap bersahabatnya pada generasi muda bangsa .
Laki-laki sejati bukanlah dilihat dari bagaimana dia di hormati ditempat bekerja, tetapi bagaimana dia dihormati didalam rumah…
Laki-laki sejati bukanlah dilihat dari kerasnya pukulan, tetapi dari sikap bijaknya memahami persoalan…
Laki-laki sejati bukanlah dilihat dari dadanya yang bidang, tetapi dari hati yang ada dibalik itu…
Laki-laki sejati bukanlah dilihat dari banyaknya wanita yang memuja, tetapi komitmennya terhadap wanita yang dicintainya…
Laki-laki sejati bukanlah dilihat dari jumlah barbel yang dibebankan, tetapi dari tabahnya dia menghadapi lika-liku kehidupan…
Laki-laki Sejati bukanlah dilihat dari kerasnya membaca kitab suci, tetapi dari konsistennya dia menjalankan apa yang ia baca…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …
enough money within her control to move out
and rent a place of her own, even if she never wants to or needs to…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
something perfect to wear if the employer, or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
a youth she’s content to leave behind….

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
a past juicy enough that she’s looking forward to
retelling it in her old age….

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ….
a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
one friend who always makes her laugh… and one who lets her cry…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal, that will make her guests feel honored…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
a feeling of control over her destiny.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
how to fall in love without losing herself.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
how to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without; ruining the friendship…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
when to try harder… and WHEN TO WALK AWAY…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
that she can’t change the length of her calves,
the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
that her childhood may not have been perfect…but its over…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
what she would and wouldn’t do for love or more…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
how to live alone… even if she doesn’t like it…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
whom she can trust,
whom she can’t,
and why she shouldn’t take it personally…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
where to go…
be it to her best friend’s kitchen table…
or a charming inn in the woods…
when her soul needs soothing…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
what she can and can’t accomplish in a day…
a month…and a year…

Life is complicated. It won’t be just one stright path destination without over analyzing, overtime we will intent to do. We grow with experiences that’s what important..discovering sense that you don’t know it was exist. Treasuring relationship that I have and cherising person for what they are..whether it makes you weary or sinical sometimes. I haven’t run around putting this blanket of judgement in people in general and I I hope I will not skeptical about people in general. and I believe I tried to travel light without baggages. I don’t like to be judgemental eventhough many times I do judge people from previous behaviors. well.. I guess I have to like people the way they are and give them a chance like I give myself a second chance everyday. I might not forget but I am extremely forgiving. I’d like to believe that people is as human as they are with their own limitation and their own weaknesses, their own security or unsecurity. I mean that’s what make people what they are. I learn that I can’t dissapointed from time to time and overwhelmed by alot of poeple. that’s the reality that I have to accept. Maybe someday I hope… these past and coming relationships will make me understand and give me control over my emotions. Experience is enriching and that’s what make myself today. the good the bad and even the ugly. Thank you Lord.

hari ini preach nya pastor ray ttg root of bitterness sambungan topik minggu lalu. Berkesannya adalah novie sendiri diingetin about decision about forgeting the past and embrace my future.
YG lucunya kemaren hari sabtu waktu jalan2 sama yen2 ke bev cen, ada org india stopping me, dia bilang bahwa dia ada perasaan bahwa dia perlu kasi kartu dia ke gw. dia bilang novie ada perna sakit hati sama cowok yg novie sayang banget and masi belom bisa melupakan. hehehhe.. aih.. I told her.. you were right if you told me this 2-3 years ago maybe but Iam in love now. But she keep insisting that inside my heart, Iam still enduring the pain.. this woman is funny.
gilanya novie juga tanggepin dia.. so.. what’s wrong with had heartaches? it’s not something that I should be bittered about.. it’s experience of life. I have no regrets. Iam happy for God has given me situation where I learned to love, deal with heartache, and live my life to the fullest. Rasanya org nya jadi bingung waktu novie bilang itu ke dia… wakaka.
Tapi percaya apa kaga, if you believe in God’s wonderful plans in your life, your sorrows will not be labor in vain. He will change it into your gain. amien

this morning, as I walk out of my room, I saw this old postcard from Ann, my ex-roomate back in indiana Bloomington. It said, happiness is circumstances. Is it really the case?

happiness is everywhere.. getting A’s, a dream job, an H1, a greencard, receiving sweet text message from your BF, wearing a size zero pants, wearing latest True Religion, etc etc…

what happen when…you have to struggle with school, get bored with your job, cranky BF ( stella and alex agree that after 6 months, tendency we would like jump off the cliff feeling will occur in relationship), too much holiday food that get you to size 6, get the wrong hair style….etc..

what is happiness anyway??? is it just temporary.. or it’s something that we can work on?

stay tune for the answer.. or even better.. come to  woman fellowship every thursday at 8:00.. contact me or email me please

One inspiring song.. for those who wants to believe in love..

I can read your mind and I know your story
I see what you’re going through
It’s an uphill climb, and I’m feeling sorry
But I know it will come to you

Don’t surrender ’cause you can win
In this thing called love

When you want it the most there’s no easy way out
When you’re ready to go and your heart’s left in doubt
Don’t give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that’s the way it is

When you question me for a simple answer
I don’t know what to say, no
But it’s plain to see, if you stick together
You’re gonna find a way, yeah

So don’t surrender ’cause you can win
In this thing called love

When you want it the most there’s no easy way out
When you’re ready to go and your heart’s left in doubt
Don’t give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that’s the way it is

When life is empty with no tomorrow
And loneliness starts to call
Baby, don’t worry, forget your sorrow
‘Cause love’s gonna conquer it all, all

When you want it the most there’s no easy way out
When you’re ready to go and your heart’s left in doubt
Don’t give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that’s the way it is

When you want it the most there’s no easy way out
When you’re ready to go and your heart’s left in doubt
Don’t give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that’s the way it is

That’s the way it is
That’s the way it is, babe
Don’t give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that’s the way it is.